Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Why is it so difficult to let go?




It is always said that “change is the only constant thing in life”. We all are striving hard to change with the changing times.. the changed time brings with it a lot of things.. new place, new lifestyle, new friends, new thoughts and new feelings, new goals of life… but is it always easy to accept the change?

Human mind is so strange.. first it wants the change… it longs for the change.. the desire is so strong that it accepts new thoughts, new ways of living and new goals.. the person works very hard to achieve them.. and when finally he has achieved it, he starts looking back.. even this is the amazing power of human mind.. u look back, think about the past.. feel nostalgic.. then start regretting about the changed life that u r living now..

Basically, what use it is to look back in life? “U should always look ahead.. and think about the future”, as they say.. “past is gone, and future is ahead.. so why bother? Live in present”, as somebody else says… but do we stop thinking about the past? No way!! It is the basic human tendency to do that… one benefit is, we can be careful while making decisions in our present and future lives, as experiences in past teach us something…

But do we really learn from the mistakes in the past? Some do, and some don’t.. frankly speaking, most of them don’t.. it is very very difficult to change the basic nature and behaviour pattern of a person.. then why to think about all these things? …. Simple!!!
-coz thinking about various things, and thinking constantly is MY basic nature!! :)

I just can’t let go of this thinking business.. sometimes I feel that life would be less complicated for me, had I not had the habit of thinking constantly, and inspecting each and every thing, if it is logical or not.. sometimes I feel like hitting myself for behaving “foolishly” as my definition of foolishness goes.. basically I’m a very practical person.. but very emotional as well.. and my practical and logical self always keeps on scolding the emotional and somewhat illogical self.. for not understanding intricacies of life.. and for looking back at the past again and again..

Sometimes it so happens that I start living in the past so much that I loose sense of current times.. and become all moody, gloomy and dull.. but then my logical side starts scolding me like anything.. then I try to come out of it and be cheerful all over again… but then I keep on thinking.. why does it have to be this way? Why do I always have to witness a fight between my heart and my brain? And both are equally strong, and equally important in my life…

The emotional attachments with a person, a thing or a place makes it very difficult to let go… coz I want to hold on to those things and experiences which are very special and dear to me.. those which are closest to my heart… but sooner or later I have to do it, because it is always better to prune dead branches of a plant if u want the other branches to grow with vigor…

So.. finally my brain wins over.. I come to my senses… and once again start living in the present… with goals and ambitions of future, and a heart full of hope… that “whatever happens, happens for the best”... :)

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